Sunday, May 08, 2005


Easier to Swallow

Call me an attention-seeker or whatever, but I enjoy receiving compliments. Who doesn't? Whenever my boss said "Good job on that proposal you've written!", I rule the world. Whenever a girl in a crowd goes "I love your voice!", I own Sony Records. But, for some odd reason, there's one type of compliment I have a hard time swallowing, which are compliments about my looks.

This insecurity started in forth grade. I was in art class where my art teacher, Mrs Stucker, demonstrated how to draw human faces, and randomly pointed to each kid the different facial features, like Ben's large eyes and Arlene's small ears. "As for Asian features," she said, "you have almond eyes and often flat noses. Like Muddy's." All the other 13 kids turned around and stared at me. Jackass Jason then went, "Look! Muddy's nose is flat!" and went on to press his sharp Swedish nose down with his thumb. I never felt so ugly in my life.

To be among three younger brothers who are much "better" looking doesn't help either. Whenever my family balik kampung, my aunts would often have a party in pinpointing the physical characteristics of my brothers and I. According to an aunt, my younger brother Wari looks like the Malay version of Brad Pit. According to another aunt, my younger brother Aiman looks like Yusry from KRU. All agreed that baby brother Firdaus is adorable. As for me, they would always say I am the smart one. Damn.

As I grew older, I do receive some occassional compliments to how I look. But, to me, they were a tad confusing. I remember this girl, who I dated back in college, had this habit of ranking the guys at my university in terms of their looks, and would always put this Fais guy as number one.

Where do I stand? I asked her.

"Baby, you're not cute," she said. "You're sexy."

Erk, what is that suppose to mean?

So, when a talent agent called me up today and asked me whether I was interested to be a head-shot model for an art show, I felt confused.

How do you know what I look like anyway? I asked.

"You were mentioned by your friend," she said. "And we saw your picture on your Friendster page. We love your look."

What look?

"You look exotic."

Damn, I thought. I look like a pineapple.


Blogger nais said...

your brother does? hmmm

6:00 AM  
Blogger P. Kay said...

hahahahhahha, sorry, but i had to laugh aloud at the last line about looking like an exotic pineapple!

i remember arlene and her small ears!! that was when you were the year below, kan?

don't worry mudsters, you're a GQ babe!

6:57 AM  
Blogger KaiserSoze said...


I can so totally relate. My brothers look as if they were plucked out from some hot male model magazine and my sister, well, she used to grace the cover of some local mag...

As for me.."Well, you're the smart one"..that works until recently when my doctor to be brother did a clean sweep of 13 freakin 1As for SPM..


5:29 PM  
Blogger adekmanis said...

Haha your posts are hilarious! Keep writing ok! By the way Animal Farm and 1984 are two of my favourite books too =)

7:32 PM  
Blogger MarinaDelRey said...

dude, u ARE funny u know that? who cares about looks when u've got a hilarious personality? I'm sure ur cute anyway, u pineapple u :-)

8:42 PM  
Blogger Pojan said...

can totally relate to the inferiority complex when it comes to looks. damn, how i wished i could wake up one day and look in the mirror and see Rose McGowan lookalike staring back at me. lol.

beauty with brains.. now that's what i call unfair.

10:25 PM  
Blogger Pantani's 2nd Cousin said...

the issues of metrosexual today - somebody else better looking than i.


10:32 PM  
Blogger disco-very said...

I also had my share of 'chubby-chops' and 'moonface' crap when I was a kid, so I also feel a little wierd when people drop compliments about my looks.

Honestly, I agree that your Friendster picture is hot.

You are a smart, cute, sexy AND exotic...


playin! ;p

10:38 PM  
Blogger Inn said...

Oh! I so can relate. I have the same problem. My sisters are all fair and pretty. My pak long use to sing "Sepuluh budak hitam, suka kawan dengan Intan.." and I would cry.

And most of my girlfrens are prettier too. When I was in school, guys became my friend so they could get to my pretty best friend. Trauma! hahahahah!!

11:00 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Nais :

Yeap, my brother does. heheheh...:P

Khaylis :

Hehehe...really? :P anyway, for me, i associate exotic with tropical fruits and south american girls (ai-carumba!). Me = exotic? = confused. hehehe...

And yeah, arlene was in my grade. i thought she was hot back then, especially her olive skin.

12:53 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

kaisersoze :

dude, glad to know that you can relate . and damn, your bro got brains! (erk, the competition is getting tougher...hehehe)

anyway, do update us on the status of your decision; the anticipation is a killer.

chi :

Hey, thanks for dropping by! and thanks for finding my posts amusing, or more like, do you find me amusing? hehehe...just kidding. and yeah, those two books rock! the animal farm cartoon was awesome, but can't say about the 1984 movie though...

12:57 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Theroadie :

You said it, pal. You said it! Lol...:P

Disco-very :

Babe, you are a babe. That porcelain skin, that funky attitude...(I'm melting...) hehehe...

Me? a promegranate? might as well just call me a fruit stand. hehehe...

1:06 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Marinadelrey :

hahahah...are you now nicknaming me pineapple? (blush blush). heheh...thanks babe, i do hope so. and yeah, bet you are quite the looker yourself. :)

Pojan :

beauty+brains+large bank account. Now that's unfair. hehehe...

1:08 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Inn :

Dark chocolate are the best type. ;)

1:10 AM  
Blogger random-girl said...

oh sweetchums, i know exactly how you feel. my cousins are drop dead gorgeous, landing modelling jobs, stewerdesses and the likes. plus my bro looks like he could be a in a pin up boy band (don't tell him i said that!) and lil me was always and still is dubbed the "smart one"

when you've been "categorised" as A, it is kinda weird when someone says you're B. nothing to be confused about. just smile :)

tho i am wondering - if you're a pineapple, then me with my frizzy curls, would that make me a rambutan? hmmmmm

1:21 AM  
Blogger K. Light said...

It has to be the hair man. Go easy on the spiky products :D

1:29 AM  
Blogger Nikola said...

muddy, you have a skin fetish don't you? hehe.

5:16 AM  
Blogger Miss YY said...

First timer here! Gosh... I like your writing :-) Can't wait for more!

6:10 PM  
Blogger Dade Ghost said...

Hehehe... if your brothers are good looking, then u r good looking n sexy! Dun worry la... your positive personality will give u an edge....

6:47 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

random-girl :

a rambutan? muahahah...that's cute. No babe, you are more like a lychee. Sweet. :)

anuar :

hey pal, thanks for dropping by? how's the new pad? anyway, yeah, my spiky hair may have contributed towards the notion that i am indeed a freakin' pineapple. And an exotic one too. hehehe...

7:02 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Nikola :

What gave you that idea, you bronzed skin babe? ;)

Miss YY :

Hey thanks for dropping by! You think so? hehehe...anyway, cute (you and yer cat). :)

Dade Ghost :

Hey, Ghostwriter! Thanks for making an appearance. hehehe...anyway, yeah, i like to think i'm edgy. It only solidifies my image of a pineapple...mehehehe...

7:06 PM  
Blogger jol-burger said...

Mrs Stucker was a stupid bitch. I had her for some art class in 9th grade and I wanted to punch her.

12:02 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

J :

Jols!!! is the lawyer-in-the-making doing? Miss you babe. When are you coming down here???

12:22 AM  
Blogger mangolisa said...

OYYY!!! After the mango, pineapple is my favourite fruit. And you knwo what they said about pineapple and oral sex doncha doncha?
you exotic thang you!
PS: when I have my life back, I am going to add you!

3:59 AM  
Blogger Elina said...

eh, exotic fruits are veeerrrrryyy sex-ay, what. you should be tersangat flattered.

9:12 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Mangolisa :

Hey Goddess, where have you been??? Miss you lah and your cooking entries...mehehehe...

And oh wow! What do they say about pineapple and oral sex doncha doncha??? You're giving me ideas...hehehehe ;)

elina :

Hahahha...oklah, i accept being a pineapple! It's better than being a jambu batu...mehehe...:P

5:58 PM  
Blogger aeyya said...

yeah yeah amad and his 1001 looked! kan kan kan...but regardless how well they dressed or makeover a BEstfren i do and still do manage 2recognize u under all those CoverVersion makeover hahhahah x) "tuuuDuuup Tuuduup tutuduupdupp...i love you babey....i love u hold the lonely nite" wakkakaka cheers amad

2:50 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

aeyya :

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!! Hehehe...anyway, that was so yester-year. bet nobody remembered it except you. hahahahah...miss you tons. :)

4:59 PM  

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