Friday, September 09, 2005

Twisted


When you do feel like sheep

Warning : Please avoid this post if you are already having a shitty day

It began with a friend who called me and said, “It’s true. My company is giving me away six months bonus end of month.” As I was dodging after-work drivers on Jalan Sultan Ismail yesterday, I could not help but shout out back, Congratulations! I freaking hate you!

No, its not that I hate my friend per se. He and the other workers in his fucking company perhaps deserve that extra million. But what bothers me is that after two years of working my bloody ass off, I never had the opportunity to be rewarded like that. Which just makes me so damn angry.

Yes, there was a close time when the Agency planned a company trip to Langkawi. We were all to bake in the sun at the Berjaya hotel, chow down grilled fish, and wash the afternoon away at a spa. We were even to have bad karaoke night. But thanks to my constipated client who wanted me to fly to Penang and emcee a seminar immediately, I could not go.

Ok, perhaps it is my fault that I could not enjoy a fat bonus these years. I have been skipping company to company within the span of two tahuns. In fact, next month, I will be doing the same thing. So, does this mean that my “disloyalty” certifies no reward at all? What bullshit. My brain, sweat, and body have been heavily invested into the successes of your projects; this certifies as loyalty.

It also doesn’t help my porno boss is finding ways not to compensate the 18 unused annual leaves I have been saving. Yesterday, for example, he told my assistant and me that all the letterheads we supposedly wasted were to be paid back from our salaries. GILA!

I may come across angry (correction: fucking angry), but what bothers me is how my current company is shooting me down because I had found a better opportunity elsewhere. Yes, it hurts to say goodbye to an asset. Yes, your clients will probably leave because I did. But what hurts more is how my boss can actually close one eye and claim that the clients I won were actually won by him.

32 Comments:

Blogger Capital B said...

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6:54 PM  
Blogger Capital B said...

Hi Muddy,
Yesterday you cerita you caught him watching porn.
Today,
You cerita the project you've closed the deal is his.

Enuff said:He is a real jack ass!!!

6:56 PM  
Blogger dudae_simboyo said...

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muddy, it's not 6 months but 4 months plus 2..... go ahead, ask him.....

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7:05 PM  
Blogger Khalil Long said...

u r young n its the layer cake.. expect to get fuck up the rear end a few more times before you get to fuck others. n u will.

7:07 PM  
Blogger A Babe Of Very Little Brain said...

welcome to corporate world, darling. you've just got to learn to live with it and when the time comes, you'll get the chance for a payback. believe me, the time will come.

it's a good thing now that you're leaving. do try to stay longer than 2 years next time round, okay? looks good on your CV too.

8:08 PM  
Blogger adekmanis said...

I totally feel you babe.

And it sucks cos I really mean it when I said that. Uwaaaaaaa that makes two of us. How can they fuck us like that?

But of course they can, we're only the small fries :(

8:09 PM  
Blogger teek said...

even with no shitty day pun, this entry is dangerous gak. thx 4 reminding me to change my job.

*muddy, u r contagious la wei! (i kennot elaborate further)

9:03 PM  
Blogger silent said...

*HUGS*

9:16 PM  
Blogger asm@di said...

mudster, you're not the only one who feel angry, now I am too!! How come la I don't ever get 6 month bonus, kan best tu.Imagine all the shopping that I can do.

10:05 PM  
Blogger madnessinvain said...

Letterhead to be paid back?. Sorry bro, but he is a Di*khead.

12:17 AM  
Blogger 9 said...

your most typical A1 grade arse-hole.

if u do leave the company in the future, get in his office the day before and use his e-mail to send out the porn he usually layan to all the staff.

12:21 AM  
Blogger Sports Freak said...

Sorry to say, but thats life in the corporate world dude. Been in the corporate world for over 10 years and things dont change much. Different company means different animal, thats all. Just hope that you are very high on the "food chain".

Office politics suck but thats the rules of the game. And if you want to win, abiding or at least looking like youre abiding to the rules can help you win.

But your boss is an ass if you have to pay for letterheads.. Thats fucked!

1:39 AM  
Blogger ZR said...

Changing jobs, ek? where do you find the courage, my friend?

2:31 AM  
Blogger lion3ss said...

At least you have the courage to change jobs when you feel the need to. Me? With the bond, bad bosses and what not - I am still here!

3:30 AM  
Blogger shobshob said...

oh i'm so sorry with the things that u have to deal with your current company..

hopefully next month will be a better chapter for u.. :)

8:30 AM  
Blogger thinktankgal said...

Muddy...you will have more "bonuses" when you think back the experience that you have gained for the past 2 years or soo..So, do your thing in the next company or other future companies and screw the current company ok!!

Err..not to worry..I never got any bonuses all of my years of working..but definitely wealth of experience and networking :-) Think long term dear :-) But to get that fat cheque is pretty cool too heh! he!he!

7:58 PM  
Blogger suzequatro said...

muddy : is he a malay boss?

9:02 PM  
Blogger Vlad said...

Sorry to say you will never get the same amount of icing on a cake.

A Romanian saying goes, "Don't blame the butcher for baking a bad tasting cake."

No worries, it means you're fucked.

8:45 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

capital b :

capital, you know i actually reflected on this the entire weekend, and i realised that there were times when he was indeed a great boss. he taught me a great deal at my job.

but there are certain charactherisitcs which i don't applaud on. or even understand why.

so yeah, i don't hate him. i just don't understand him.

dudae simboyo :

hahahah...yeah, it is indeed 4 months and 2. and yeah, congrats on it as well. ;) huhuhu...

sorry if i previously dissed your company. i wrote the post when i was at a very angry place. but the irony is that in fact, i will be joining your company next month...

isn't it ironic?

khalil long :

yeah, i guess when you are young, the Elders find it justifiable to fuck us upside down without our consent. but in my case, i will beat the living hell out of those who will dare to think that way...

6:44 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

babe :

hey babe, thanks for the advice. yeah, despite the challenge i am going through in my current company, the situation is not all that bad. my colleagues are great, and i love my clients. but the fact that there is indeed another opportunity which i can't resist, justifies why i am leaving...

i promised myself the next gig will be my last...(for the next 5 years atleast)...

chi :

you know what? i am kind of tired of complaining and will work agains the tide if i must. after re-reading my post, i realised that i am indeed whining too much, when infact there are good things at my work as well...

but babe, guess what? an ex-uni mate of mine told me she used to work at your old company. what a small world, ain't it? ;)

and yeah, your current company is a great company to be in. my cousins tried to go there, but weren't as lucky. so hang on in there, hopefully, the storm will surpass to a calmer day...

teeklebone :

hahahahah...when i wrote this post, i was simply venting out my anger. never knew that it will inspire my fellow readers to do the same...huhuhu...

if you decide to leave, do so without any regrets. people will advise you not to, but if you know it is time, it is indeed time to say sayonara...

6:53 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

silent :

thanks babe, needed it. but yeah, do me a favor, whenever i come across as whiny, go ahead and slap me across the face and say, "well do something about it!!!" ;P

and yeah, sorry about msian idol. i had to go to the kenduri for my late grandpa/ma...

asmadi :

yeah, the workers at that specific company deserves that bonus. they indeed worked hard at achieving their outstanding financials. so no hard feelings towards them. the only hard feelings were towards myself. i need to stick to a company so that i can be rewarded accordingly...

and shop? huhuhu...i think if i did get that bonus, it will be splashed into upgrading my car. huhuhu...

madnessinvain :

i recently talked to the new lady at accounts (whom i am close with...huhuhu) and she told me he can't do that. the budget for office supplies are huge, but its funny though...i only have two ballpoint pens at my desk...

7:21 PM  
Blogger Rostam Effendi said...

Dear Muddy, what u r going thru is a part of life.

I bet later on, u can see the better side of it. Something for u to learn and do better next time.

Hang in on there buddy and good luck in your new undertaking.

7:23 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

hurnain :

i could do that, but what i did last friday was much better. i actually went up to him and told him my frustrations in the most calm way. he actually apologized for the stuff that he put me through, saying that this is indeed the first time he is managing a large team.

he actually said he was thankful that i expressed and not leave with baggage. and that night, he even treated the dept a drink out...

so yeah, apology accepted. :)

sports freak :

the thing about me that i realised is that whenever i am not satisfied about something, i will be extremely vocal about it. as i told hurnain, i actually expressed this dissatisfication and got the apology i wanted.

however, as my friends recently told me, not all directors/managers can accept complaints. i do hope that my vocal style can be accepted at my new company...

zr :

where do i find the courage? i guess it is my nature to take risks. and the knowledge that i do deserve much better.

you must trust yourself and your skills. if you know your current company is undermining you and not pushing you to achieve your full potential, it is indeed time to leave. this trust will fuel your courage...

7:28 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

lioness :

yeah, i am leaving because i can. because the fact that i have secured another opportunity which i personally feel can provide inroads to better things. but even if my new undertakings prove bad, so what. there is always lessons to be learnt as my fellow blog writers pointed out...

if i actually could not leave, all i could do is try to find ways to improve the situation. i know, its easier said then done, and it gets harder when you deal with huge conglomerates. but if you continue to voice out your opinions, one day, you will be heard...

shobshob :

i do hope that my new chapter will lead me to greater things. and i am not that naive to think that there won't be any challenges. as you know, with my new job scope at the new company, i will be working like a maniac. and the fact that i will be dealing with new people proves that there will always be bad eggs that i will have to face...

but as the old saying goes, "go with the flow" and "no regrets"...

thinktankgal :

yeah, thanks for the advice. perhaps short term wise, i will not see the fat bonus that i wished i could have. but yes, indeed, i have accumulated a wealth of knowledge, skills and network from the past job and my current one. and i am thankful that it is because of this experience that i managed to secure my new venture... :)

7:36 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

sooz :

no, he's not malay. so the biasness does not stick in this siituation. huhuhu...

but its sad kan. that such characteristics are often thought of as a very "malay" thing...

vlad :

yeah, i guess i was fucked, but it doesn't mean that i needed to be raped in the future. i realised that my ability to argue strategicallly has provided me the power to change some aspect of my life. and has i have told hurnain above, it gave me an apology and a night of drinks... ;P

and yes, a butcher should never bake cake. Alexis should. huhuhuhh...

rostam :

thanks for the advice bro. and yeah, i do see the better side of the situation. time really helped me to see things in perspective. especially with the advice from my family, friends and my fellow blog writers. :)

7:42 PM  
Blogger yanz said...

yeah i did fwd that mail ESPECIALLY after reading this post of yours. that article has been collecting dust in my inbox a while now.

cheer up muds. the world ain't that bad after all. (ermmm somehow that sounds like it didnt have anything to do with anything at all kan?)



-we're all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars-

9:34 PM  
Blogger dudae_simboyo said...

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welcome to the torture chamber. if you can't bet a'em, join 'em...

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10:59 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

yanz :

yeah, thanks babe. it really gave me a whole lotta perspective (which i desperately need sometimes...)

and yeah, i see stars. but its hard when it is always so damn cloudy at night...

rostman :

hahahahah...the torture chamber? that's a first (or is this a warning?). well, for that saying, i believe that if you can't join them, beat the pulp out of them. huhuhu...

12:47 AM  
Blogger mysara the bozo said...

i am officially not ur silent reader anymore

can i apply to that company ?
i cud use sum extra money
hahahahaha

1:29 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

mysara :

woohoo!!! I found your blog too. so now i can kepochi your life as well. meheheheh... ;P

thanks for silently reading my blog. siapa lagi yang buat the same thing too?

hmmmm...

11:47 PM  
Blogger Inn said...

i tot i left a comment yesterday. hmmm.. neway, i worked for a small company before and we did very, very well one year. Boss gave us 1 n 1/2 month, and then give himself 60 months bonus. yea sure he owns the company but he didnt work alone. I resigned a month after that.

12:19 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Inn :

that's a ridiculous amount of bonus your boss took. is that legal? huhuhu...okay, imagine your boss per see made a minimum of RM10,000: that's a cool extra RM600,000.

this only certifies that one day, i should open up my own company too. ;)

5:17 PM  

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