It's In The Cards

Luna is Loony

A few weekends ago, May called me up to remind me to have a social life again. It’s been ages, I groaned. “Well then we must,” she responded. As an initiative, she told me that she will drive, and I said okay, why not.

Once I got into her car and we headed down the NKVE to KL, she told me that she recently visited a Tarot reader. Oh wow, I said, so what does your future hold? “It’s not about the future, Muds,” she said, while speeding down the highway. “The Tarot reading was just to give myself insights on my current situation.”

In short, the situation was that she was not at peace. Especially with her past. For the past weeks, I have listened to her explain her “situation”, and we came to the conclusion that perhaps she needed closure. Just give him a call, I said. “And cry over the phone?” If that’s closure, why not, I concluded.

But the tarot reading said otherwise. The cards read that May can be at peace, only if she allowed herself to adjust to the things which are constant. For example, May was like a fish out of a pond when she came back to Malaysia after living in Boston for years. In terms of work, the pay was never right. In terms of rules, she hated how she is constant fear for holding hands. “If I have a ticket to New York, I would fly off now,” she would always tell me.

So the tarot was saying that it was not the past that caused her emotional chaos. It was herself that caused her own troubles. She needed to change and adjust to the present, and not worry about the past. “For example, Malaysia will always be like this. I just have to adapt in ways I know how,” she said.

So, how are you going to apply this to your ex-boyfriend?

“He is in the past. I just have to let him go.”

I nodded, and stared into the highway. It’s easier said than done, I thought. But seeing her smiling, at that moment, I knew she found peace. Even when it was within her all along.