Tuesday, July 05, 2005




"Hey, are you asleep?"

I must have been, because the lights were off in my bedroom. Yeahhhhhh, who's this?

"Hey its me, dude."

It took me awhile to decipher who it was. I stared at my phone, just looking at the numbers 2.30 blinking back at me. Below it was a name I haven't heard for the longest time. And it was welcoming.

Dude! I yelled, still in bed. What's up?

"Nothing really. Just wondering whether you wanted to chill. I am infront of your house already."

You fuck! Tomorrow's work lah. I can't!

"Dude, I don't care! Come out now! For old times sake."

Old times was when I would sneak out of the house to go to Nouvo with the guys. Old times was when we would drink teh tarik at Darul Ehsan until dawn. Old times was when we would honk at all the girls in little Kancils passing us by on Federal Highway. But now its 2.40 am in the morning, and I have a presentation at 10. Old times seemed like a very distant memory.

But I haven't seen him for the longest time. And found my self unlocking the gate of my house and stepping into his grey Beamer. At that moment, I felt like I was 18 again.

"Dude, how are you?"

Nothing much lah. Same o, same o. How about you?

"Well, I am leaving to Australia this Saturday."

For what?

"For good," he responded, still able to zig zag like a demon across the highway without looking. "I have decided to live with my mom there."

He is an only child. And for the past three years, his mom and dad seperated. His dad lives in Subang. His mother in Perth. I could never totally relate to his troubles, but as a friend, I listened. I remember there were times back then that he would park his car infront of my house and just sleep there. And my Ma would always, in her early morning routine of watering the garden, knock at his Beamer's window and asked him to come in for nasi goreng. He never onced declined. He always said that he loved my family.

"Dude, go check what's inside the dashboard."

I went to check to find some homemade cigarettes in a ziplock bag. You got weed???

"Yeah, go light it up. For old times sake."

It was incredibly tempting. The sweet smell lingered in my nose, but the thought of being high during a presentation with my largest client was disturbing. And funny too. I have to pass, dude.

"It's cool," he said, "It's my last stash before I'm coming clean."

We drove around Shah Alam, passing by Concorde, the blue Mosque, and Projet. Like old times, we sang along with 112, Dru Hill and Boys II Men. With the windows pulled down low, we laughed, while letting the breeze sail through our hair, remembering how good it felt to roam the night aimlessly.

Soon after, we were infront of my house again. And I got off the car, turning back so say, Thanks for the night pal. I hope we can chill again.

"Sure thing, in Perth," he said, while flashing out a grin. "And remember this always, dude. Be spontaneous."

Be spontaneous, I repeated.


Blogger yanz said...

that was a sweet post. demmmm now i miss me old friends and times we used to have like dat. back when we were in utm, we took spontaneous road trips like breakfast in muar for the mee bandung, sudden dinners at umbai melaka, getting into the car, not knowing where to go, and ended up in uptown coz we remembered how good the kuey tiaw and chicken chop tasted like...

we were a bunch of crazy girls, living on the edge.

demmmm i feel old.

p/s: weed is good. and u can always just sleep it off. hehehehe *innocent*

7:27 PM  
Blogger Dade Ghost said...

YEah I can relate.... Once in a while its great to hang out with your pals...

ERmmm yeah the smell of weeds... been more than 20 years... very tempting...

Must be bad in Malaysia, people are migrating. I want to migrate too.... NZ? Hehehe... fat chance for me!

7:44 PM  
Blogger wingnut/chickquita said...

sounds like a clip from a movie... dramatic dramatic :)

8:22 PM  
Blogger Sports Freak said...

Very-very nice posting... Makes me wish an old friend would drop by and we could go 'cruisin' again...

Oh Ya.. I forgot, most of my friends are married and the single ones dont drop by anymore... somehow you get outcasted when you get married..

oh well.. at least the married ones still drop by with 'the greens'.. :)

8:42 PM  
Blogger Beachbabe said...

aawwww, that's sweet...

8:55 PM  
Blogger A Babe Of Very Little Brain said...

so it was you guys i heard singing those Lord-awful songs in the middle of the night!

my kaki lepaks from days bygone are busy raising kids. we old folks need our beauty sleep.

9:01 PM  
Blogger chics said...

heart warming..

9:03 PM  
Blogger chics said...

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9:04 PM  
Blogger torch-of-life said...

*sigh* u really make me miss him.

Wake up @ wee hrs, just to grab a bite at A&W nearby and have the craziest surprise of going round & round Assunta roundabt in fast speed w me yelling, and yelling..then back home in sec, now, tt's dangerous but tt's the kick of it..having a man in total control ..the adrenaline rush...i miss the fun we had..

Last-min getaways, rush bookin tix, arriving forgetting hotel we booked earlier, insane..but fun until i got sick and he wanted to kill me for being dead.


9:06 PM  
Blogger Zetty said...

really nice post. made me walking the memory lane, man.

11:06 PM  
Blogger shobshob said...

Ahhh i really missed those spontaneous days with my friends..

We once drove from KL to Kuantan at midnight to meet up our friend there (that was before the East Coast Highway exist!). Spend a day there, and at 3am the following day left Kuantan. We stopped for breakfast at First World Hotel Genting while sunrise and reached KL around 10am that day! Hahaha..

11:41 PM  
Blogger aeyya said...

why cant we still be in tat kind of situation? yesh spontaneous alwiz fulfilling hehhehe x)

12:03 AM  
Blogger shell said...

Mudster-- no worries buddy.. Perth is just a stone away. (5 hours jer naik flight :) ) Lovely beaches..

i miss those young times.. *sigh*

12:10 AM  
Blogger kepala_angin said...

how come the years pass slowly when we were 0 to 23 yrs old (abis college). after that it kinda pass zippily *such word?. i still remember my days as 20 ++, now I'm in 30++ zone.


3:18 AM  
Blogger chick arse said...

awwww..brotherly love.i envy the way guys get along like dat. they dun need no hugs or frequent calls just to assure their friend that they're still in each other's thoughts.they just know it.they won't merajuk here n there if their friend is all of a sudden closer to sumone else.i am totally green with envy!

4:50 AM  
Blogger Miss YY said...

Nice car he's driving... :-)

11:03 AM  
Blogger Pantani's 2nd Cousin said...

is khaylis seeing anyone?

9:11 PM  
Blogger Foxybabe said...

hehheh. australia is expensive. malaysia's the best. I can never see myself migrate to another country. living there temporarily.. yes. But never forever. I love malaysia so much. the food, weather, people.. etc.. etc..

9:30 PM  
Blogger nais said...

whhuh roadie? hehehe..

driving aimlessly's always great.. especially with great company! my bestfriend and i would take a slow drive around her 50490 area and look at people's houses. windows down, enjoying some light breeze and all that jazz. at the end of the night, we'd sit under the porch and talk over coffee. great times lah

7:11 AM  
Blogger Han said...

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9:46 AM  
Blogger Han said...

Why does all this talk about sponteneity involve driving long distances?

9:56 AM  
Blogger shobshob said...

i think it involves long distance because normally, people plan ahead before going somewhere far..

but short distance can also be spontaneous (like going to sunway lagoon!).. heheh.. :)

2:38 AM  
Blogger the kimster said...

That's the funny thing about growing up huh? You take yourself and life wayyyyyyyyy too seriously, and you lose your spontaneity. Everything is too calculated and measured, and I don't know if that's necessarily a good thing. No more reckless abandon *SIGH*

5:23 PM  
Blogger Han said...

For me, a trip to Sunway Lagoon is as spontaneous as a trip overseas. Carefull planning is needed before I step into that place.

Having said that, I haven't been to Sunway lagoon in a long time, so maybe there's no difference!

9:07 PM  
Blogger madnessinvain said...

Brotherhood man. Blood in, blood out.

11:17 PM  
Blogger yanz said...

hey bro, mind dropping me an email at yanzster@gmail.com? got a few Qs to ask.. perhaps too personal for the blog? and also, abt the card hehehe...

1:32 AM  
Blogger K. Light said...

roadie:is she not seeing someone?

1:38 AM  
Blogger Vlad said...

madness in vain :
I did not know you were with the La Onda.

muddy :
Ah who doesn't love being spontaneous. Like someone commented earlier, as we grow, we tend to calculate and unfortunately commit.

I am still quite spontaneous in everything but women. That I need much to learn from.

6:10 AM  
Blogger silent said...

that is so sweet. it makes me miss my old times with good mates. i think i'm going to cry now cause all the mates i grew up with during these wonderful times are in a different country.

8:42 AM  
Blogger madnessinvain said...

Vlad - Soy el rey de Los √Āngeles

11:29 AM  
Blogger Muddy said...

yanz :

Sweet post? Huhuhu...really? ;P

Anyway, spontaneous breakfast in muar for the mee bandung sounds sooooo good right now. I love having road trips specifically for food. One time, my uni friends and I went all the way to Penang just for the rojak and laksa. That was cool.

And yeah, sending you an email. Questions too personal for a blog? This will be interesting...hehehe. ;P

Dade Ghost :

Hahahaahah...yeah, weed has this extremely sweet smell. The first time I smelt it, I couldn't take it. Neither could I take cigar smell. But, since the "exposure" during uni times, it smells alot like perfume to me. Muahahahah...

Migrate to NZ? Hahaha...what is there? Sheep? (No offence, Random-Girl...heheheh)

Wingnut/Chickquita :

Dramatic? Muahahaha...really? And sounds like a movie? Gosh, my life is really a baaaadddd b-grade movie, trust me. heheheh...;P

Jojo :

Hey pal, thanks for dropping by! :) You get outcasted when you get married? Oh damn, sorry to hear that. But, from my perception, married ones tend to want to do stuff on their own, and not hang out like they used to. I don't know...that's just my perception, but yeah, once in a while, why not hangout like old times right?

And greens? hahahaha...vegetables? Money? or are you referring to weed? hahahah...;P

5:13 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

beachbabe :

Aiyo, sweet ke? its giving me cavaties, thinking about it! Muahahaha...

the babe :

Yes, it was us!!! hahahahah...we purposely sang louder near your place. We were serenading you lah babe. We thought you would enjoyed it. Hahahaha...;P

chics :

Hey, thanks for dropping by! :) Heart warming? Huhuhu...its giving me heart burn, I say. ;P

jules :

Hey, thanks for dropping by! :) Wow, the stuff you guys did sounds terribly fun. I love A&W, especially the root beer float. But only if it comes with the frosted glass. I mean, root beer float in a paper cup is just salah lah...hehehehe...

And no worries. Bet you will see him anytime soon...

5:18 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Zetty :

Hehehehe...thanks zetty. Yeah, once in a while, walking down the memory lane is really great. It does make you realise how fun you were, and how fun you still can be. :)

shobshob :

You are like one of the most spontaneous I know!!! That "hey, let's ride the rollercoaster" move at Berjaya Times Square was so unexpected. Remember how I got sick after that? Muahahaha...and yeah, lets get the guys to go to Sunway man. Let's go water slide....woohoo!!!

aeyya :

Yeah, but remember those nights when you would call me very late at night to go to Barbarran/Orange with Ez? It was soooooo much fun, and really damn spontaneous too. We can still be that crazy group of kids, babe. Just come back here this September so we can re-live those moments again. Muahahahaha...

Shell :

OOoooo...perth sounds really nice. My real brother is in Melbourne right now, and I have yet to visit him!!! Heard it is really lovely there, and the fact that he is managing an Italian restaurant, that is cool. He said I could have free meals when I get there. Awesome eh? :))

5:25 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Foxybabe :

yeah, i've travelled a lot myself, but always find myself gravitating towards Msia at the end of the day. Raya overseas is never the same. Roti Canai is never as crispy. So yeah, if I had to migrate, I would do it shortly and live back in good ol' Msia. :)

Nais :

Hey babe, nice seeing you again! How's jengjeng? Hehehe...;P

Anyway, coffee after a great aimless drive sounds really nice. I love hanging out, chatting away during the wee hours. Your guard is so down and you can act silly without any reprecussions. hahahaha...great times, which I say, can be anytime. :)

Han :

Dude, let's go Sunway this Sunday!!! Bring along the girls, and we can push them into the pool. Sounds great eh? hahahahah...;P

Madnessinvain :

Blood in, blood out? Damn, sounds painful. hahahaha...La Onda? and you were also in LA? Dude, you are such a world traveller, I envy you man. Anyway, miss LA so much...why were you there? UCLA?

5:41 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Anuar :

yeah, anuar, is she not seeing anyone? ;P Hehehehehe...

Vlad :

Dude, you can't be that bad with women. I am sure you got strings of ladies at your beaconing. Your humble being and your fluid style in language will surely make some hottie drool. You got it man, just believe in yourself. :)

Silent :

Hey babe!!! I think you coaxing me to sing is the most spontaneous thing I have done in the longest time. So, yeah, thanks babe for making me feel alive. :))

5:45 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

kepala angin :

Oh gosh, you're right! I remember when I was a kid, growing up seemed like a slow and long process. I guess when you wanted to be older, time slows down. But now, growing older comes by soooo damn quickly, its scary! But hey, you know what they say about girls in their 30's right? hehehehee...;P Youza!!!

Chick arse :

hahahahah...really? Never really thought about that. I guess the reason why we don't merajuk around is because why should we? The friendship is still there, so why waste the energy on merajuk-ing? :) Anyway, sisterhood is also a great thing, I say. Example = Sex & the City.

Miss YY :

Yeah, i know! Since he is in Perth right now, Mr B (that's what he calls his Beamer) is just sitting still in his drive way. He told me that once in awhile, I could give a spin. I told him, gladly!!! heheheh...

Theroadie :

Muahahahahahahaha!!! So, you're interested in my bestfriend, Khaylis??? All I can say is that she is not "seeing" anyone, as quoted from her blog. ;P

6:30 PM  
Blogger Han said...


Sounds like a plan. Hope I can kick this sickness beforehand.

10:39 PM  
Blogger dudae_simboyo said...


the last time someone showed me a stack of weed, i found myself at the sidewalk in jalan bangsar at 2 in the morning. man, you could hang for that


12:07 AM  
Blogger shobshob said...

ahhhh sunway lagoon... best best!


7:24 AM  
Blogger disco-very said...

friends are the most awesome beings on the planet! i love moments like those, especially when they're narrated so vividly. a great read :)

8:36 PM  
Blogger Muddy said...

Han :

Dude, the mexican theme sounds good. Senoritas anybody? Muahahahah...;P

dudae simboyo :

Hey, thanks for dropping by! :) and yikes, yeah, the law is quite stern on weed. but hey, its just one tiny little smoke man. hehehe...

shobshob :

Get your terengganu behind down here so we can finally go!!!

discovery :

You making me blush babe! Heheheh... ;P by the way, had tons tons tons of fun with you and your boys during the starlight cinema thing. we should do it again! :))

6:10 PM  

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